Thoughts

So this evening I popped to my local shops and saw my mum's car parked there. I panicked rather thoroughly and pretty much reversed straight out of there.

I really didn't need this. I've only just recently been able to go to those shops by myself without having to force down anxiety every time in case I see her and have to deal with her. I'd hoped there would be some sort of mutual respect of our various "turfs", but clearly not. I'd been avoiding her local shops, so I hoped she would do the same for mine. I guess that hope was unreasonable. I'll still avoid hers, in self-preservation if nothing else.

I just feel like I've had a major set-back. Now that I know she comes here, I don't feel safe any more, which is a horrible thing because I should feel safe where I live, and I just don't right now.

I have a wonderful partner, an awesome housemate, an adorable and affectionate kitten, a job I like, and really great friends.


I'd say I have everything one could possibly wish for :-)